I HAVE TO LOOSEN MY GRIP!! I’ve been in survival mode for the last month and this is everything that I wasn’t supposed to be. I moved into my parents house so I could be fearless and pursue all my dreams of traveling, vlogging, YouTube, acting, all while trusting god and the universe to let things unfold. But I’ve been stressing myself out for no reason these days and filling my mind with what ifs and catastrophic thoughts… and I realized I’ve been gripping soo hard that I was chasing my dreams away. So this weekend I wrote in my journal for hours, I wrote almost 6 pages worth and I did a lot of soul searching. I truly convinced myself that I failed, but then I decided to open my eyes and realized it’s only been a month. ONE FUCKING MONTH AND I EXPECTED MY LIFE TO CHANGE IMMEDIATELY AND ALL MY DREAMS TO COME TRUE… and I literally declared myself a failure… I was subconsciously giving up already that’s why I was in survival. Today I am learning to give myself grace and to also stop being so hard on myself when I get like this, and I realized me being able to have grace during moments where I feel like shit/scared/doubt myself is literally the growth/change that I asked for. It’s really about continuing to have faith even when I’m scared shitless and even when I think I don’t see any progress at all. So if anyone else feels like shit lately, just know that one day we will look back to this time fondly as a beautiful part of our journey. ❤️
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Published: September 1, 2025 at 4:00:09 AM
xailormoon | I HAVE TO LOOSEN MY GRIP!! I’ve been in survival mode for the last month and this is everything that I wasn’t supposed to be. I moved into my parents house so I could be fearless and pursue all my dreams of traveling, vlogging, YouTube, acting, all while trusting god and the universe to let things unfold. But I’ve been stressing myself out for no reason these days and filling my mind with what ifs and catastrophic thoughts… and I realized I’ve been gripping soo hard that I was chasing my dreams away. So this weekend I wrote in my journal for hours, I wrote almost 6 pages worth and I did a lot of soul searching. I truly convinced myself that I failed, but then I decided to open my eyes and realized it’s only been a month. ONE FUCKING MONTH AND I EXPECTED MY LIFE TO CHANGE IMMEDIATELY AND ALL MY DREAMS TO COME TRUE… and I literally declared myself a failure… I was subconsciously giving up already that’s why I was in survival. Today I am learning to give myself grace and to also stop being so hard on myself when I get like this, and I realized me being able to have grace during moments where I feel like shit/scared/doubt myself is literally the growth/change that I asked for. It’s really about continuing to have faith even when I’m scared shitless and even when I think I don’t see any progress at all. So if anyone else feels like shit lately, just know that one day we will look back to this time fondly as a beautiful part of our journey. ❤️
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I HAVE TO LOOSEN MY GRIP!! I’ve been in survival mode for the last month and this is everything that I wasn’t supposed to be. I moved into my parents house so I could be fearless and pursue all my dreams of traveling, vlogging, YouTube, acting, all while trusting god and the universe to let things unfold. But I’ve been stressing myself out for no reason these days and filling my mind with what ifs and catastrophic thoughts… and I realized I’ve been gripping soo hard that I was chasing my dreams away. So this weekend I wrote in my journal for hours, I wrote almost 6 pages worth and I did a lot of soul searching. I truly convinced myself that I failed, but then I decided to open my eyes and realized it’s only been a month. ONE FUCKING MONTH AND I EXPECTED MY LIFE TO CHANGE IMMEDIATELY AND ALL MY DREAMS TO COME TRUE… and I literally declared myself a failure… I was subconsciously giving up already that’s why I was in survival. Today I am learning to give myself grace and to also stop being so hard on myself when I get like this, and I realized me being able to have grace during moments where I feel like shit/scared/doubt myself is literally the growth/change that I asked for. It’s really about continuing to have faith even when I’m scared shitless and even when I think I don’t see any progress at all. So if anyone else feels like shit lately, just know that one day we will look back to this time fondly as a beautiful part of our journey. ❤️
thank you for coming to my ted talk
