dadeleine

I was in the top 2% of creators with over 400 people followi..

Published: August 17, 2020 at 12:03:49 AM

I was in the top 2% of creators with over 400 people following me, and a handful of those 400 harassing me. A lot of people unfollowed me and continued to harass me on other platforms. If you are a legitimate “fan” or friend you have been consistently supportive in a multitude of ways, and you know who you are, but you also probably know I suffer from a bunch of mental illnesses, physical ailments, anxiety, bad health, and over all—bad luck. Those of you who have stuck with me, offered me all kinds of support, it rips me apart to know that the poor actions of others have damaged my line of communication with any of you. I don’t want to lose people’s trust, but all of this plays out like relationships in my head. When someone is repeatedly hurt, they recoil. They learn fear and apprehension. It isnt fair that my trust, and subsequently yours, should be damaged or broken. I will always be willing to share my life, my thoughts, my hurt and hopes. I’m trying to heal my arm, my foot, my bravery, and my confidence. Im now in the top 3% of creators here with half the followers I had at the peak. And I can’t tell you how much safer and comfortable I feel. For all of the people who have hurt me, those of you who have stuck with me, backed me up, supported me—you have my undying love.